Going to an audition really shouldn’t be that scary. You show up, you say the line, and then you leave. If they call you, great. If not, then you just keep on going and you have to hope that people are going to call you another time. The human brain is not perfectly rational, however, and that is not the way it is for a lot of us. We tend to act like our lives depended on the results of the audition. Reminding yourself that this is not the case is just not going to be enough in many cases.
I think that this gets easier as you keep on going in the world of theater. Eventually, all of your auditions blur together so much that you’re not going to have to worry about the ones that didn’t go so well unless something really embarrassing happens, and it probably won’t. However, that still isn’t going to make people feel much better if they’re still in the beginning stages. It doesn’t feel like that’s where I am. I feel like I’ve been on lots of auditions. I’m still a college student, though, and I’m way younger than a lot of actresses when they get their big breaks, so I guess I am still at the stage where each audition really feels like it matters and it will make or break your career.
One of the biggest problems for me as a person on the autistic spectrum is that I can have a hard time with sensory overload problems at times if I’m outside of my comfortable element. With an audition, comfort is going to be a big problem. I sometimes rock back and forth for a little while before an audition in order to calm myself down a little bit. It gets you into a state of flow, and that can be really important to someone like me.
I always rehearse the line a little bit before the audition. I try to make sure that I have everything memorized, even if the speech in question is really long. I want to make sure that I really do have everything down, and you really can’t do that unless you have memorized all of it and you have gotten to the point where you have rehearsed the speech or the line from many different angles. I like to make sure that I have really memorized everything and that I’m going to be able to give the best performance that I can.
Obviously, there is a point where you really have rehearsed too many times and you’re going to sound like a person who is basically reading the lines off of a billboard. You have to get past that stage, too. Once you’re past that stage, you can finally really give the performance that is going to make you famous, or at least, the performance that stands a really solid chance of you getting through your audition and into something that you’re going to remember positively for the rest of your life.