Just to give a little background about me: I was a career woman most of my life. I married at the pretty ripe age of 37 and had my daughter at 38. I gave up my six-figure (barely) income to be a stay-at-home mom. I figured I had a child so late in the game, I wanted to savor every minute of it. It was also important to me that I raised my daughter instead of some stranger. As luck would have it, my husband's work situation changed, increasing his income dramatically. It seemed like fate that I should stay home to raise our daughter.
I really didn't have the fun that I thought I would have. Raising a child is a lot of work with very little appreciation. Nevertheless, I never regretted my decision for a minute. Especially when our daughter started to miss some milestones and needed some extra help, I am so thankful I was around to learn and apply the behavior therapy techniques.
The truth is, that as much as I love my mommy hat, I miss wearing my career hat too. Now that my daughter is in school, I longed to go back to work. This past year, I did just that! I landed a part-time job at a growing internet start-up company where I was able to work flexible hours. I was able to work a lot from the comfort of my own home too. It was really great!
Now that our daughter's therapies are winding down, and her school offers great after school programs, I'm faced with the dilemma of increasing my hours at work and working a more set schedule. My boss even wants me to work a full-time day or two a week, which would mean hiring a sitter to pick up my daughter from school and feed her dinner at home.
This is both exhilarating and scary to me! I think I have to redefine what motherhood is to me. Am I ready to do so? I'm not sure.