Thursday, July 28, 2011

Sometimes I Forget

Sometimes I forget.



I watch my daughter play with her friends, laughing and sharing.


Sometimes I forget.



My daughter runs over and gives me the biggest hugs ever. She says she loves me.


Sometimes I forget.


She makes amazingly insightful comments about the world. Her intelligence amazes me!


Sometimes I forget.


She'll dive into her piggy bank to bring a few dollars' worth of coins to donate in the charity box at the grocery store because she wants to help out those less fortunate.


Sometimes I forget.


My daughter cares about justice and what's right in the world.


Sometimes I forget.


She has a great sense of humor and can make me laugh even when I think I'm too tired to.


Sometimes I forget.


She'll tell me long stories about the counselors' antics at camp.


Sometimes I forget.



But there are days that I remember.



Those days, I find I have a hard time getting my daughter to answer my questions.

I watch her dig in the sand by herself instead of playing with the other kids.

She will throw a huge fit over any little thing that doesn't go her way.

My daughter will not easily transition from one activity to the next.

Those days I remember. I remember that my daughter has autism.

The realization hits me instantaneously, and I find myself feeling depressed.

But it's on those days that I have to remember that I have the luxury of being able to forget sometimes. Many moms out there are not given these vacations. They're constantly reminded. They never forget.

I'm very thankful that sometimes I forget.

10 comments:

  1. Some things are nice to forget. Some things are nice to remember.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Oh, I love this post Cheryl. Your honesty, love for your daughter, pride in her, and hope for her shine through...loud and clear. XO

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh Cheryl,
    This is such a moving post...I am so touched by it.
    xo
    Cindy

    ReplyDelete
  4. You're fearless in your discussion of autism, Cheryl; I wish more folks were. I'm glad you sometimes forget. God is good.

    ReplyDelete
  5. This post really touched me. As the mom of an aspergirl, I totally understand. I hope you don't mind if I share this.

    ReplyDelete
  6. This is a great post! It sums up life here as well. I have two on the spectrum, but both are at the Asperger's/high functioning end. There are certainly hard, hard moments(days), but you are right, there are times when it's easy to forget.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Such a great post, Cheryl. And sooo true. I'm so glad we can forget some days, too.

    ReplyDelete
  8. It's lovely alright when you get the chance to forget, and its good to remember that those days will come again when you're in the middle of the summer holidays and your aspie child is not coping well...

    ReplyDelete