Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I'm Trying to Be Good!

When I was younger, my best trait was my figure. I was naturally skinny AND naturally curvy at the same time! Now that I'm 45 years old, that's not really the case anymore. I'd like to blame having a kid, but I actually did well with my postpartum weight loss. In fact, because I had to limit my diet so severely while breastfeeding, I actually got too skinny about four months after giving birth. Weird, huh?

So, I'm sure you're all wondering what happened. Well, stay-at-home motherhood happened. I spent a lot of my time around the house eating whatever my daughter didn't finish. I take her to a gazillion birthday parties where I have to be polite and eat the birthday cake (in my culture, it's terrible, bad luck not to eat the cake. Okay, I made that up). Chocolate is my therapy. I must have some everyday or I go crazy! And I'll be honest, the stress of raising a child on the spectrum can get to me at times. I turn to food. A lot.

On top of this, I hate to exercise. A lot. During my single days, I discovered that I loved to dance, however. It started with contra dancing. I bet most of you haven't even heard of contra dancing. It's a form of social dancing. It's a precursor to square dancing. I believe its roots are English and French country dancing. After I got into contra dancing, I got into Cajun and Zydeco dancing. This was a lot of fun too. Then, I got into swing dancing. I was actually into swing dancing before it became such a big craze.

After I got married, my dancing days ended. I tried to exercise by using the gym in the apartment complex we lived in. By gym, I mean a dingy, smelly room that housed some weights and a treadmill. I used the treadmill about 3 days a week. I continued to do this through my pregnancy as well.

But after having my daughter, I stopped working out entirely. About two years after having her, the change in lifestyle started to take its toll. When she started to go to preschool, I realized I was pretty depressed from the extent of her tantrums (we still didn't realize she had autism). I joined a gym to get into shape and find a way to relieve the stress and depression I was experiencing.

I was really bad about going, however. It was such a pain to schlep to the gym! Yada, yada, yada. After my membership expired, money was tight. We had our daughter assessed and realized that there was a reason for all the tantrums--she had autism. We spent a lot of money out of pocket for her different therapies. And still, I didn't exercise.

Today, I decided to go out and get some exercise! After I dropped my daughter off at school, I went home and then took a walk around my neighborhood! I live in a hill house at the top of a hill. I just did about a mile loop, but it's a pretty steep climb up and down the hillside. It's such a beautiful walk--great views and neat houses to check out. It's really better than going to any gym. Although, I was embarrassed to find out that the homes being built around the corner from my house are almost complete! The last I saw them, they just had their foundations laid. It HAS been awhile since I took a walk. Yikes!

As an incentive, I'm letting myself sleep in a bit later on the days I go for my walk, since I can shower after the walk. My hope is that I'll keep the activity up at least on days that it isn't raining. I'm hoping to get a Wii Fit down the road to exercise with on rainy days. I'm hoping that the added exercise will help me lose the proverbial 5 pounds. However, it seems like when I increase my activity, my appetite goes up as well. I'm trying to be relatively good! Time will tell whether I'm successful!

14 comments:

  1. Good for you! Walking is my favorite excercise...I despise cardio so walking is a good balance for me!
    I hope you find your groove and lose those 5 Lbs.

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  2. I've got alot more than 5 lbs to lose. I lost almost 20 about 3 years ago but it's all back on. Funny you write this today because I'm making a concerted effort to get to the gym this week. I always have some disaster strike just as I'm getting back into it. And I also have that vicious cycle where the more I work out, the hungrier I am so then I tend to overeat anyway because I'm so starving!

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  3. good for you! I was starting to see results before I got pregnant... now everything is gone to heck in a handbasket ... hope you are able to keep to your new schedule!

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  4. Good for you and keep it up. I'm right there with you.

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  5. Oh, good luck. I love to walk, and it's the one type of exercise that I've managed to stick with over the years. (I just couldn't do the gym thing.) Besides providing exercise, I feel like it helps me mentally too. I sort through all my day-to-day problems and end up feeling much more calm by the end. Good for you!!!

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  6. I'm very much the same way and trying to get back into it now.

    Good luck!

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  7. Good for you for taking the first step! It's always the toughest. Nice try on "rainy days" though - I know where you live. It doesn't rain out here! lol

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  8. Oh, it's so hard to get back into it! Especially if most of your life you really didn't have to worry about weight. It helps me if I try and think of taking good care of myself as being for my kids, too...so that I will be healthy and fit and around for them. Sounds cornball, but it's hard for me to motivate!

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  9. Good for you to take care of yourself and set some goals. And you deserve the rewards! We moms of kids with ASD always end up on the back burner but we've gotta make ourselves a priority (please feel free to remind me of all this anytime!).

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  10. I'm a new blogger on the ASD blogs...and I happened upon yours. I'm in the same boat, and it feels SO GOOD, doesn't it?! Our son has a recent diagnosis...but I totally "get" the schlepping around thing and tantrums. Sometimes the energy just isn't there. Good luck with your working out!

    Chris
    www.acrazykindoffaith.blogspot.com

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  11. Good luck! I also struggle with exercise. I really need to do it more.

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  12. Good Luck my friend. Getting outside is always nice :)


    I wish I was more consistent with my exercise too!

    OOoh...you should get back in to your dancing days...sounds like fun!

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  13. Who doesn't struggle with exercising? Oh, sure, I have a couple of friends who are fiends, but everyone else is normal = squeamish about exercise and lovin' their chocolate.

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